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Alone, with the eyes wide shut
No beauty was left here
Cold steam exhales from my mouth
Reminding me that I'm alive
Drowned in despair
Her voice echoes in my head
Lying in the dark corner
Wondering to see her light again
All that is left to me
Is memories
All that keeps me breating
Is memories
Breath
Bleed
All that is left to me
Is memories
All that keeps me breating
Is memories
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Unguilty - Dust
08:06
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Cold and eternal winter
Freezing our dreams
In pale shades of gray
We watch our lives in slow decay
Powerless, we cry
As our bodies fades away
By the dawn, the sun will no longer warms our flesh
Dust we are
Dust we will forever be
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Fentanil - Serotonin
04:53
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Happiness is just a mix of feelings
And feelings are a mix of chemicals
If they are well-balanced, you’re lucky
If they are not, you’re like me
I’m a mess, an unstable mess
Serotonin is missing in my brain
And it fucks up all my body
My chemical being is under control
Of you, a single molecule
I need you, serotonin
Let me be your slave
I’m crawling for you
To feel your false joy
I’m cutting for you
Your beauty misleads everyone
I need you in my brain
Come bring your artificial joy
My lazy neurons produce you too little
But when I need more, I know what to do
I need more, I’m cutting for you
The only solution was
To keep you, to raise your level
So that you don’t leave me anymore
To keep you prisoner of this cage
Prisoner of my brain, just like me
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In silence, I witness this cold dawn
The sunlight tearing up the clouds
Soon, there will be the first light
Of my last day
Walking with crooked steps
Don't know what lies beyond each shadow
Hear a scream resounds in my head
Could it be the end of my fears?
My legs are faiting
And I see in shades of gray
I can feel the the inner cold
Turning my lungs in bags of ice
Set me free
No more fears of delusions in me
This is the first light
Of my last day
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They want to cleanse the fucking blood
Running through my veins, poisoning me
My liver is as spoiled as me
I know what I’ve done and that’s okay
If you can’t save me from my hell,
Please, don’t save me from my death
It’s not a mistake, it’s a choice
It’s the urge that has helped me
But I’ve been preparing it for a long time
For years and years, in secret
If you can’t take me from my head,
Just let me leave my whole body
A few hours more would have been enough
I would have suffered, but now it would be over
They found me too early, too bad
A future corpse dying on the floor
I could have been free, but I’ll stay chained to life
Like a dog to its leash, but pills could have set me free
Now I’ll be ‘’saved’’, I have no choice
I try to resist, but I can’t move
They’re all around me, holding me against my will
‘’Is she conscious?’’, ‘’How many pills?’’
‘’It could have been lethal, but she’ll be fine’’
No, I’ll never be fine, you dumb fuck
Now I’m lying on the bed with clean blood and burning veins
With the aftertaste in my mouth and my upset stomach
Thinking I messed everything up
And tomorrow I’ll see the doctors and pretend
They can’t set me free from my mind,
But they don’t want to let me leave
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There is a cloud inside my head
And can’t even think
Of what makes me so sad
I just need to escape
But escape from what?
I can’t even remember
What broke me inside
Was it a word or a gesture?
Who has thrown the first stone?
I don’t remember what went so wrong
They say ‘’forgive but don’t forget’’
I can’t forgive
But I don’t fucking remember
And if you ask ‘’what’s wrong?’’
I can’t even tell you
The first punch has been buried
Underneath all the others
I just remember the last one
I still suffer from the others
If my memory has forgotten
I know my heart will never
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